Now that I’m back to work, I have noticed that the amount of laughter I experience each day has decreased drastically.
Now, this isn’t to say that I don’t work with great people nor am I saying that I never ever laugh at work.
But comparing my days on maternity leave where I spent all day every day playing with a little munchkin who loves it when she discovers a sock on her head or is thrilled beyond belief when my hand pokes through the end of her shirt and tries to eat her (“AAAahRah-num-num-num-num” it might say), I simply can’t compare.
And on top of it, I got to spend my days with someone who was awe-struck by what I consider to be the most mundane things. I got many lessons on how to appreciate simple things that I’ve never given any thought to before.
For example, did you know that flipping over the baby tub in the bathtub and watching the water go down the drain is fascinating?
Did you know that getting a handful of toilet paper and shredding it into tiny little pieces is a great way to pass time?
Did you know that mommy looks frickin hilarious after a shower when she has a towel on her head?
Coasters are fascinating and it’s a blast throwing them off the end of the couch.
And ceiling fans…are like “woah”.
So I’m back to work and I’m not being forced to appreciate the little things. Instead I’m falling back into old habits of annoyance.
Obviously it would be more fun to laugh, be silly, and appreciate the little things rather than being annoyed or even indifferent.
So what do I do? Is it possible to have all of those things at work?
I was talking to a friend of mine whose son-in-law recently accepted a contract with Pixar. She was just down for a visit and telling me about how much he’s loving it. He comes home each day amazed that his day had gone better than expected. Every day he comes home and is like “Wow, I didn’t think my day could get any better than yesterday but it did.”
As much as I was listening with envy to this story it opened my eyes to what’s possible.
Although that is not my current reality, I decided to shift my focus today and start noticing the laughter and fun.
I noticed I laughed a lot during a conversation this morning with a coworker this morning about kids and grandkids.
I laughed a lot telling my husband about a pissing contest between several large-egoed male peacocks at a meeting today. And I appreciated that I was in the right mindset to put an end to it before it escalated out of control.
So although, my days are noticeably filled with less laughter and fun I am consciously making an effort to adapt.
If I had absolute freedom to choose I know I would chose to stay home with Hailey. But instead, I’ve made a decision to go back to work.
Rather than focusing on how much happier I’d be at home, my goal now is to transfer the skills I’ve learned over the past year being a mother into my job.
And at the top of that list of new skills is the ability to laugh a lot and appreciate the small stuff.